If I could just get it right this time
This one last time
Maybe I could go out and live
Maybe I could live my life the way I need
Maybe the one thing between a good day and
A bad day is this one last step I keep fucking up
Maybe that’s the missing piece
Maybe it’s the most important piece
So why can’t I do it and why can’t my stupid
Brain just do this perfectly in the order I have decided
Is the only right order?
I just want to be able to leave the house
Or sleep
Or open the page of this book instead of
Running my hands over it over and over
Or stop thinking about conversations I had
Two years ago and if I said the right things
Think it again until you get it right
Count it again until you get it right
Do it again until you get it right
Again until you get it right
Again
– Sara Myriad
6 Comments
Monica Cooper
I have a lot going on in my life right now and really needed to read these words. You have always been an inspiration with your writing.
Valorie J Steinbeck
Love you!
Thirteen Doors
Beautiful and perfect
Carter Moody
Freeing ourselves from our own mental or personal hangups is the greatest challenge. It can be done.
saramyriad
Thank you, Carter. I hope you’re doing well.
Lucky Number Eleven
I’ve only recently discovered your blog. It’s beautiful in so many ways. Thank you for sharing your strength with the world, Sara. The world needs it.
—M.