Too many years of Poison slowing my veins There’s nothing left but apathy Rotting until the stirring of awareness Until I come back to myself And then — My body, strong with my anger Roots down in the earth like a tree that Senses smoke, flames licking Arms up, branching into the air Ready for rapture, purification I want…
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A New Way of Grieving
I’ve lost people before, of course. To death and to the growing apart that happens with friends or past lovers. I’ve mourned in my own ways. The normal ways: crying, eating junk food, punching pillows and writing out the pain. But when I began my own death, I grieved in a new way. Cleaning out. I started out with…
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Puppet Master
Once I stayed up fueled on ramen and sugar Penned a story confronting my demons Or maybe they were yours, coming for a visit You loved it, of course you did How could you not when it was both of us The lines blurred so long ago I forget If we were symbiotic or parasitic Not that it mattered,…
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You & Me
I treat my art like an afterthought. A side piece; I’m ashamed of My 2AM “U up?” texts when It deserves all of me And I wonder how many times I can Cancel plans before it says You know what? I’m done You say you love me but can’t put me first Why should I be around when you…
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3AM in the Meadow
I like the 3AM me She’s the braver one willing to go down Rabbit holes of thought without Grasping each thing like it’s truth A bible to her fears No, 3AM me knows It’s all sincere but also full of shit And everything, ultimately, is fine In this freedom she flies So fast her feet barely touch earth There’s…
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Black Dog Scratching
Same old shit, different day I’m familiar with this black dog that Scratches at the door to be let in Before it jumps on my back for a free ride into My thoughts. It’s there now, do you hear it? I’m the one waiting with dark circles And smeared mascara on the mattress Like a queen of dark things…
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A Whim, A Whim, A Whim
Unapologetic in her pleasures Selecting them like flowers Like clouds puffed away; an exhale Ecstasy A whim, a whim, a whim No need to compare to others No such thing as betters Just different talents; inspiration Learning More, and more, and more No greater joy than growing No greater triumph than knowing Tomorrow could the best; believe it Hoping…
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Doubt Came for Me Today
Doubt came for me today Dark as my mind on the nights I can’t escape my thoughts with Venom drops dangling fat from teeth bared Close to my face, close enough spittle collected On my cheeks as it spoke. “Do you really think you are worthy?” Its voice an unholy cross between a cat’s seductive purr And chittering of…
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The Fruit
Crush my heart to pulp between your fingers; I’ll smile through the blood in my teeth and ask you to do it again, harder this time. I’ve realized it doesn’t matter if I make love to the wrong person with my words. The words don’t care. They want to be written either way. Either way, I’ll bleed. We’re all…
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You’re No Samwise
I wanted you on this journey with me, But I had to accept things as they were, So I left you sitting on the bottom step, Watching me walk up; away into the clouds. – Sara Myriad, 2022
